Back in October of 2009 I finally surrendered to the demons that ran my life. I was struggling with the early months of recovery, but knew I could never give in because, if I did, I felt it was only going to be harder to get to the point of surrendering again.
My mind was made up and I had to go through with it once and for all and not let anything or anyone stand in my way of my new life of sobriety.
In the very beginning I thought I was going to go nuts having no alcohol in my body. As you may know when someone drinks alcohol everyday, year after year, it is very hard to just say goodbye to something that has been a huge part of the alcoholics life.
I started off changing my attitude in life and making it 100 percent positive, instead of being that negative person, continuing to say why me? Why doesn't anything ever go right for me?
I had to get out of this horrible addiction to alcohol and start to live a normal life, and to have my family get back to normal as well, considering they all put up with my drinking for many years.
The first day of my sobriety was pure hell. I had no idea what to do with myself, and to be perfectly honest, I didn't even know if I could get through these early days of recovery. I was told by many of my friends that have been sober for some time that the beginning would be tough, but everyday that goes by would get easier.
The first day, and the weeks thereafter, I prayed for night time to come fast so that I could get in bed and fall a sleep. I knew at least if I was sleeping I would be safe from the urges and temptation to drink alcohol.
My friends told me it would get easier, and they were right. As long as I didn't cheat and sneak a drink, and stayed strong willed to make this sobriety in my life happen, I would make it through the toughest part of the early months of recovery.
For anyone that has an addiction to alcohol, I suggest you really should think about giving your addiction up and start a fresh life of sobriety. I never thought I would be able to do it, and I did, and so can you!
If you have the willpower, the determination, and the willingness to change your life, sobriety will happen, and that goes for anything in life.
It has been over 5 years that I have been clean and sober and I praise myself each and everyday for being able to beat my demons once and for all.
Now I can go to bars, restaurants that serve alcohol, weddings, parties and really anywhere that alcohol is being served and it doesn't bother me one bit.
Just a short note,, I heard just today, which I never knew, that being an alcoholic cuts your life short by 26 years!! Is drinking that poison really worth losing 26 years off your life?
Think about that.... and it just may change your mind, your families life, and save your own life as well.